I Did It!
Completed My Dare.
Last blog I wrote about my challenge of my deepest fear. Underwater.
I must admit it was a long way to travel to meet my fear, and was it worth it? Not only was it exciting to go extra miles, I was appreciative to be in warm waters of Mexico. Well worth the trip.
As I donned the heavy equipment required to suspend in deeper water (okay it was only 6 feet deep), I felt the responsibility of learning how to breath into a ventilator, get water out of my facemask, adjust my weight belt, and coordinate my fin feet to move all at the same time. It felt daunting not only when balancing the scuba tank, I had to eject water that accumulated in the mask. Simple task you may think, but when you’re trying to stay afloat and forget what to do next, water gets right up your nose. Not so successful!
Swimming like a fish in water was good exercise and thank goodness for my floatation jacket in some of the maneuvers. Being a good sport, I completed the hour plus exercise in the hotel swimming pool. No risks here. Not relishing to be in water over my head, I managed to navigate with all the equipment. And I did it! Kudos to advance scuba divers, they have my utmost respect for their feats at the bottom of the ocean.
For many years it has been my fear to be immersed in deep water, and now I got to experience the fear again. My endeavor has taught me several things:
- It is possible to step up closer to a fear and learn from it.
- Not all fears need to completely met or walked through, rather they can be better understood by coming even closer to the challenge.
- Fear is not meant to stop you, rather it can become a mindful lesson.
I know this experiment can be repeated again, with more time, practice and patience. This first underwater exposure was like dipping my toe to feel what it would be like. I love myself for taking the chance, to feel first-hand my fear. Fear is identified as: False Evidence Appearing Real. Now that this step as been taken, I see my ability to move forward, not held back like being frozen. Fear is a life blocker and an energy robber. By doing this experiment I have unblocked my hesitancy to do something perceived as fearful.
What fear may be interfering in your life? Ask yourself the question and sit with it. And wait…
Being free means releasing fears and being more open to what life is offering. The truth is that you deserve to have openness and clarity and it begins with self-honesty.